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{October 13, 2019}






Heartland Community Church


October 13 – 18, 2019

 

I AM: Your Calling

By Marnie Vasquez

Crap, crap, crap. Jump out of bed, run down the hall. “Everybody up, everybody up NOW.” I run back to our room. “Come on, honey, you need to get going too.” I jump into the shower. My husband yells irritated, “Why did you wake us all up 30 minutes late?” Ugh, I know, all the ‘you suck as a mom’ voices start screaming in my head. Somehow, I mutter in the hot water, “Thank you for this day, Jesus. Sorry, I suck. Please help me, and please be with my family.”

The kids are verbally going at it when I come downstairs. “Come on guys, let’s be good to each other. We’ve got to help each other out.” Wrong move. “Yeah, Mom, well don’t get us up late. We’re going to be late for school. I’m going to get a bad grade on today’s test because I couldn’t study.” “Yeah Mom, way to go.” My husband comes down and chimes in. Ugh. “Okay, okay, everyone, sorry. Let’s just get in the car and get going.”

Of course, school traffic is bad. I nearly get hit twice. The kids are yelling to hurry so they don’t get a tardy. As they get out, I tell them I love them, and God loves them too. “Yeah, yeah, Mom, we gotta go.”

Drive off. Deep breath. Ready myself for work and the meeting with my boss. Ask Jesus to please be with me, please guide my steps, and please be with my family.

Work is jam packed with meetings. There’s too much work and not enough staff. As I walk up the stairs to meet with my boss, I quickly mutter, “Please be with me, Jesus, please make me strong, please give me patience and remind me that I am and always will be in your hands.”

Well, that meeting didn’t go well. He denied me to hire staff, despite the fact I had done all he asked of me. He also said he wasn’t going to promote me until maybe sometime next year. I remind him we’ve been discussing this since last fall. I remind him in March he said I deserved it. I remind him just last month he told me it would happen this year.

I leave work defeated. I cry hard on the drive home. I argue with Jesus. I’m trying, I really am.

I get home. One of the kids did have a tardy and now has a before-school detention. Fantastic.

I go sit on our back patio and drink in the cool night. I’m hurt. Tired. I sit. I reflect. I listen. I breathe. And for whatever reason, I start feeling good. Really, really good.

Why? Because I know I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. Had I not had those 15 chapters of life before today, I don’t even want to imagine what a wreck my life could’ve been. What a wreck my kids’ life could’ve been. Right now, my role, my “I am” story is to be a light to my family and work. Despite it feeling hard, not fun, and not-at-all sexy. I need to bring the “I am” in small ways even though I don’t think I’m getting through. I know I’m in His hands, and He will take care of us.

I also sit and think I may be in the midst of another 15 chapters – training and molding me for where and how God wants to use me next.

I end the day in peace. It’s going to be all right. Thank you, Jesus, thank you for not giving up on me. And as I head for bed, I set two wake-up alarms.

CLICK HERE to watch the 10.13.19 message, I AM: Your Calling.

 

{sunday 10.13.19}

Read Psalm 131:1-3

Observe, Reflect, Apply: Find a moment or two each day this week, just a moment. Often for me these moments are found when I’m in my closet, the shower, in my pantry or walking around the yard. Just stand there, quiet your mind, and breathe. In and out. Pray this slowly, taking a breath after each sentence…

“God, you created me.
You know me better than anyone else.
Father, I know I am your beloved child. 
I know that I am a temple of yours, Holy Spirit. 
Lord Jesus, I am your disciple.”

You might stop right there reminding yourself of who you are. And once or twice this week, continue the prayer and listen for a moment before you continue your day…

“God, who do You say that I am? 
What is my unique calling?
What is your original design for me?”

Then read Psalm 131:1-3 again.

 

 

{personal reflection and bible reading plan}

This week we are trying something new with the Journey study plan. The questions each day focus on your observations, reflections, and application.

For a brief teaching on each days reading, hop over to YouTube and follow Seth Davidson’s Vlog on The Journey Online. Simply follow along, listening to the corresponding date. CLICK HERE to check it out. Be sure to click "subscribe" on the page!

As you read the verses each day, make notes of questions you have about what you’re reading as well as answering the reflection questions below. Grab a friend or two to discuss what you are learning and what God is doing in your lives.

 

{monday 10.14.19}

Read Mark 10:13-31

Observe, Reflect, Apply: What do I see happening in these verses? What did it mean to those involved? What might it mean for me today? What is God saying to me specifically? What is one thing I am willing to take action on?

{tuesday 10.15.19}

Read Mark 10:32-45

Observe, Reflect, Apply: What do I see happening in these verses? What did it mean to those involved? What might it mean for me today? What is God saying to me specifically? What is one thing I am willing to take action on?

{wednesday 10.16.19}

Read Mark 10:46-52

Observe, Reflect, Apply: What do I see happening in these verses? What did it mean to those involved? What might it mean for me today? What is God saying to me specifically? What is one thing I am willing to take action on?

{thursday 10.17.19}

Read Mark 11:1-11

Observe, Reflect, Apply: What do I see happening in these verses? What did it mean to those involved? What might it mean for me today? What is God saying to me specifically? What is one thing I am willing to take action on?  

{friday 10.18.19}

Read Mark 11:12-26

Observe, Reflect, Apply: What do I see happening in these verses? What did it mean to those involved? What might it mean for me today? What is God saying to me specifically? What is one thing I am willing to take action on?

 

{community discussion questions}

We weren’t meant to experience the life of Jesus alone, so we encourage you to rally a few others to discuss what you are hearing, reading, and reflecting on together. Whether you are meeting as a Journey Community group, talking with a few friends throughout the week, or bringing up spiritual conversations around your table at home, feel free to use some of these questions as conversation starters on your journey.

  • Can you name a takeaway or challenge from the Sunday message?
  • How has that been relevant, challenging, or meaningful to your life this week?
  • What have you observed about God, Jesus, yourself, others, or God’s plan for you from these readings?
  • Where do you need a breakthrough from God this week?
  • Who do you need to share what you’re learning about God with?

 

{extra journey resources}

CLICK HERE to visit The Bible Project site and explore their super simple, super informative Bible videos (and other resources).

CLICK HERE to get the Read Scripture App, from our friends at The Bible Project.

CLICK HERE for more on how to use the observe-reflect-apply approach to getting the most out of your Bible reading.

The Bible App Get a free Bible for your phone, tablet, and computer. Experience the Bible anywhere, with options to highlight, save notes, and share what you are reading with others.

Bible Gateway Provides advanced Bible searching capabilities, which allow readers to find passages in scripture based on keywords, phrases, or scripture reference.

 

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